Having my own company has been the biggest emotional roller coaster of my life. On some days, I’m beyond ecstatic; on other days I’m deeply down.
I honestly have no reason to be down about my company or life. Everything is going astonishingly well and my company is absolutely crushing it. In less than two months, I have managed to build a thriving company with clients around the world and I’m earning way more than I ever have imagined.
If an outsider were to look at my life, they’d see it going well and probably be confused as to why I get deeply down when everything is going so fantastically.
Somebody who is confused by what they see on the outside versus what is on the inside probably doesn’t understand that being a founder comes with a lot of pressure.
The pressure I feel is simply me fighting my own crazy ambitious mind. I have the desire to grow my company. I want to grow it because it’s fun and I want to have a meaningful impact on the world; not because I want to earn more money.
I feel the pressure of wanting to make everybody that I work with happy. I want to exceed expectations across the board, which often means putting my own life on pause for the pursuit of excellence for my clients.
The pursuit of excellence and me being hard on myself professionally often makes me pretty depressed. They are always just temporary dark times, but they exist.
The dark times are a peculiar sense of hopelessness, even when things are going insanely well. My mind races with scenarios about how things could go wrong. I often find myself fighting my brain, which tells me to go back to the typical 9 to 5 grind.
When my brain tells me to do the typical 9 to 5 grind, I quickly remind myself that nobody who has accomplished anything meaningful has stuck to the typical workday.
The following Steve Jobs quote does a great job painting a picture of how I think to win my internal struggle of sometimes wanting to give up: “I’m convinced that about half of what separates the successful entrepreneurs from the non-successful ones is pure perseverance.”
To be (and for me to remain) a successful entrepreneur, I need to remember to look at the positives during the dark times. Focusing on the positive will allow me to persevere and continue to rapidly grow my company.
Being a founder is an emotional roller coaster, but I know that grit and determination will lead to my successful company flourishing even more.